Never have I ever posted this much on a blog before. Maybe once upon a time on my old Blogger blog, but that was so long ago I cannot even remember if I posted much at all.

But today I was in the car driving home, and all I was thinking about was what I wanted to post about today. Like what the what? It’s kind of exciting! I’ve always loved writing and have kept journals all through elementary, middle, and high school, but hitting college, all those old habits got thrown out. Now it is so hard for me to put a pen to paper, even though that is my favorite form of verbal expression, but I get so bored so quickly, and frustrated! I am the type of person that likes to express certain things in a certain way, sometimes elaborately, sometimes in fine detail. Basically, I like to paint a picture of my feelings on paper, but lesbehonest…that just takes to darn long in this day and age.

I almost quit blogging the day before yesterday too. I’ve had this wordpress for over two years now that the template I use has been updated to something else although it looks exactly the same to me. Innocently, I pressed the “update” option, which automatically reset everything to the original template and erased all modifications and customizations. BAH. I do not know how long it took me to reorganize everything the way it is now, but it took FOREVER. I still am not happy with it, but if I see that this becomes a healthy outlet for me, I will consider investing in my wordpress so that I can customize it however I want.

The more I write, the more I realize I have a lot on my mind and a lot to say. Sadly, this also makes me realize how few people I actually have to share with. My parents? Yeah, right. My sister? She has other things on her mind. D? She has her own things to deal with. Everybody else? Honestly, no body cares that much to know about every though that runs through my mind. This way I don’t have to make friends, and I can share whatever I want, haha.

Anyhoo…I am glad to be given an option for my lonely days, or for the days that my mind is just spinning out of control. Not going to be naive and think that one day my blog will be mega famous, but I definitely appreciate the venue through which I can express myself.